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I had a dream that has me feeling very strongly. I have been trying to ignore this weird 'intuition' feeling for a very long time, because it makes me feel like a weirdo, but I can't find out whether or not I'm right by sitting around thinking about it. Gonna put a TL;DR at the end, but I'm about to nervous ramble so have fun lmao In 2012, I discovered that I was poly, and since then have been trying to find what works for me. Many failed relationships resulted, like they do, and then I got with someone who for 2 years made me feel guilty for wanting intimacy with partners I was already dating before we got together, and that relationship recently ended in January of this year. Which led me, eventually, to coming to this forum. After the breakup, I realized how I had essentially let myself be play-dough for people in my life. They formed what opinions, feelings, ect. I felt allowed to have, and I only acted within the paradigms set forth for me. I was a lemming, to put it bluntly. I didn't want to keep being a lemming, so I came here. But there was another reason, which I had been deep in denial about. One that has apparently begun to occupy enough of my thoughts to literally dream about it. I feel like I'm the missing Unicorn. I have thought about it for quite a bit before posting here, but being as broke as I am at the moment, I couldn't afford $100 to say this in a private email, so I'm being brave (or stupid... perhaps both) and posting it here. What I mean by that, is I feel this strong pull in the direction of being in a triad dynamic with Greg and Kai. Even though I think I sound like a crazy-person, I can't stop thinking about it. I'm 25 (on march 30th), nonbinary-masculine, am artistically and musically inclined, enjoy making videos (and would be happy to learn how to edit ngl), love kids, am a heavy switch (bdsm tmi), don't have jealousy issues, am extremely open-minded, enjoy discourse, and love understanding other perspectives. Not to mention being physically attracted to them both, which I almost forgot to include because I was so focused on the personality aspects. I truly feel like, if there were ever a chance to meet in person, we would be compatible as a trio and it would be awesome. I feel strongly enough to dream about it, so I can't deny it anymore. If I'm gonna get rejected, that's how it is I suppose, but at least I was honest and forward enough to try. Thank you for reading, and I hope you don't melt in the Washington sun today, as it has been unapologetically hot all week and I am suffering. TL;DR: I'm polyamorous, and I have a strong feeling that I am the other soulmate. I dreamt about it and it prompted me to come here and put myself on blast for even the MINUTE chance that I could be right. I was going to go through patreon and say this awk S●●● there but I don't have $100 so HERE WE ARE. I am happy to take no for an answer, so no worries though. ♡ Be safe, and have a great day! -F (Me dressed up for an interview yesterday)