By Ember Hart
Okay I am starting a thing where i tell people my true feelings. So to start this i want to tell Greg since i was 16 years old i have had a crush/loved you. When Kai (sorry miss spell) came into his life i was shocked to see i had a crush on multiple people but just his honest heart came out and when i thought that they where getting a divorced i felt my own heart brake. So glad you worked out and stuck together. Im older then Kai but i could tell he had many years under his belt. Anyway im 25 years old and from being 16 this has been my longest feelings. I know plenty of people say things then go back on what they say or just looking for attention. I just need to let my feelings show so they dont eat away. Will Greg see this probably, do i think it will change lives no, but what i can say is this after writing this i feel better and hope Greg knows what ever crap he is facing to know that I care like many of you do. Do i know people tell him this evry day sure. Will they hurt him in the end? People have many faces and can show you it but in the end be just trying to hurt. I am a open book and will be frank i cant be fake it hurts me. I speak my mind when i get courage. So this being said i love you Greg and Kai. An i turly hope when the crap you guys are facing now will blow over and in the end we all meet. My life is small and i hate drama and can see into both your hearts the pain from all you face but the love you have is stong. Im sorry i better stop now you all are bord of reading the feelings of this girl. So thank you for reading and thank you Greg for letting us all in your life and family.
First of all, let's not beat around the metaphorical bush ...wherever it is...? IDK where it's at..? ANYWAYS! I am a Muslim girl, yup, that I am?
I know... I didn't realise it till someone asked me: "Your Muslim why are you obsessing over Onison?"
And I said and I quote: "More Muslims should watch Onisons videos cos they're actually very inspiring, educational and motivating"emails
Back in the days of my long lost and miserably missed youth, I stumbled upon Onisons video. Which one? Well... I can't really remember😅 But I'm sure it was something to do with either BPD or Death Note. Either way after that I think I watched almost all his videos on the span of 2 days (this was back when I was 17 and about to be hospitalised for my unspecified psychosis)
Well my family weren't to happy bout it. They thought my attitude changed cos I watch OnisionSpeaks but that's not logical, is it?
I mean, everything OnisionSpeaks said was and is logical... May be not everything but at least about some topics.🤔
Anyways Onison if ur reading this I hope it well and old don't ever stop making YouTube vids cos they really make my day!
also ur fast paced speaking and epic outlook on things is amazing! And I'm sad that some ppl are hating on you!😤😅
anyways I don't know if ur gonna read this...
I don't know if there are any other Muslim girls who watch Onison
I don't even know if any one has ever had unspecified psychosis (my doctor once said she had to treat it as BPD cos she had no clue what it was😑) Like why do you EVEN HAVE A MEDICAL DEGREE OF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IT DIAGNOSING ME WITH!
Legit only a few ppl IRL know I have psychosis and sometimes I do tend to hallucinate. I don't tel my family tho cos they always seem to think it has something to do with demonic activity. (Yes I know😅 MADTING!)
Anyways enough about me aha
what was the topic even about!
Yooooo😱 If Onison reacts to this imma be SHOOKETH!😂
I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY GUYS! AND TO ONISON TOO!
And it may come as a suprise to Many ppl. Yes, it surprised me too...😅
Are you ready for it...? Are you sure you can handle it?
Well... I don't know if you can handle it but let's go for it shall we.
*JUMPS OUT FROM BEHIND METAPHORICAL BUSH AND SCREAMS AT THE TOP OF HER LUNGS!*
ONISION IS THE BEST YOUTUBER EVER COS I THINK HE'S AWESOME!🤗
PEACE AND LOVE
AND SMILE EVERYONE COS YOUR BEAUTIFUL!😄
I had a dream that has me feeling very strongly. I have been trying to ignore this weird 'intuition' feeling for a very long time, because it makes me feel like a weirdo, but I can't find out whether or not I'm right by sitting around thinking about it.
Gonna put a TL;DR at the end, but I'm about to nervous ramble so have fun lmao
In 2012, I discovered that I was poly, and since then have been trying to find what works for me. Many failed relationships resulted, like they do, and then I got with someone who for 2 years made me feel guilty for wanting intimacy with partners I was already dating before we got together, and that relationship recently ended in January of this year.
Which led me, eventually, to coming to this forum. After the breakup, I realized how I had essentially let myself be play-dough for people in my life. They formed what opinions, feelings, ect. I felt allowed to have, and I only acted within the paradigms set forth for me. I was a lemming, to put it bluntly. I didn't want to keep being a lemming, so I came here.
But there was another reason, which I had been deep in denial about. One that has apparently begun to occupy enough of my thoughts to literally dream about it.
I feel like I'm the missing Unicorn. I have thought about it for quite a bit before posting here, but being as broke as I am at the moment, I couldn't afford $100 to say this in a private email, so I'm being brave (or stupid... perhaps both) and posting it here.
What I mean by that, is I feel this strong pull in the direction of being in a triad dynamic with Greg and Kai. Even though I think I sound like a crazy-person, I can't stop thinking about it. I'm 25 (on march 30th), nonbinary-masculine, am artistically and musically inclined, enjoy making videos (and would be happy to learn how to edit ngl), love kids, am a heavy switch (bdsm tmi), don't have jealousy issues, am extremely open-minded, enjoy discourse, and love understanding other perspectives. Not to mention being physically attracted to them both, which I almost forgot to include because I was so focused on the personality aspects.
I truly feel like, if there were ever a chance to meet in person, we would be compatible as a trio and it would be awesome. I feel strongly enough to dream about it, so I can't deny it anymore. If I'm gonna get rejected, that's how it is I suppose, but at least I was honest and forward enough to try. Thank you for reading, and I hope you don't melt in the Washington sun today, as it has been unapologetically hot all week and I am suffering.
TL;DR: I'm polyamorous, and I have a strong feeling that I am the other soulmate. I dreamt about it and it prompted me to come here and put myself on blast for even the MINUTE chance that I could be right. I was going to go through patreon and say this awk S●●● there but I don't have $100 so HERE WE ARE.
I am happy to take no for an answer, so no worries though. ♡ Be safe, and have a great day!
(Me dressed up for an interview yesterday)
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