When I was first volunteering at the Coalition that gave me the proper credentials to advocate for Domestic Violence Victims, I started to particularly study Narcissistic Abuse more than ever before because I was so traumatized by the topic, but also needed to read it more and more, watch the videos of my abuser beating me more and more, berating me - all that, because sometimes as survivors we have guilt, we experience trauma bonding, and it is okay to remind yourself that YOU WERE ABUSED.
This helped me a lot when I was going through the battle between a temporary order and a final.....
Peace and love. Come back to this if you ever need a reminder <3